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英语吗？If l can, I also don't want to live so sadly , I also want in a sunny afternoon, embracing my lover lying in the grass, watching our son playing happily.But this is just a dream, a sad dream, I know better than to do such a dream, but still can not stop indulge in it. However, the cessation of sorrow, how can I be sure whether l'm still alive?

If I could help it, I would rather not lead such a sad life.
Sometimes I also imagine myself lying on the lawn with my wife.
In the afternoon sun, we enjoy ourselves - me, our son, and my wife.
But this is only a dream, a sad dream of itself.
I know I should abandon it instead of being stuck there unable to retrieve.
Nevertheless, how can I be sure of my being if I stop bothering myself and relieve?

If you can, I don't want to live so sad, I also want to on a sunny afternoon, have a love of people lying on the grass and looking at her son play happy. But it was just a dream, a sad dream, I don't know should do such a dream, but still can't indulge in it. However, stop the sadness, how can I determine whether or not they still alive?

もしよろしければ、私もような悲しみの生きていると、私もやってみたい、晴れた日の午後を抱きしめて爱する人のため、草地の里のような息子を楽しい游んでいます。だってそれがただの梦、悲しい梦を知りながらやってはいけないなんて梦にもあった。しかし、任然止まらなく梦中になっていることがあった。しかし、止まっていた悲しみ、どうしてあたしが确定されるかどうか自分では生きているか。

if i can ,i do not want to alive it like that,i want to embrace my lover lie on the grass see our children playing happy in a sunny afternoon.but this is just a dream,a sad dream,i know that i shoud not to dream it like that ,but i falling in this now .i can not to stop that .but ,if i stopped that ,how can i sure that i am alive or die?